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Feelings
You said you'd never make me cry,
You said you loved me,
And You said you cared,
But I see now that it was all a lie,
I love you so,
But yet I feel so hurt,
I feel hatred,
I feel pain,
I feel betrayed,
I wish you would talk to me,
Or say hi or even just a smile,
But you don't,
You act as if you hate me,
As if we never even met,
Like those 5 months that we spent together meant nothing,
You barely even look at me,
Though I wish you would,
To see your eyes,
Looking to see if you still feel for me,
As I still feel for you,
I want to hurt you,
But I feel like kissing you,
I feel so much love,
But yet in a way I hate you,
Why I do not know,
I wish you knew all of this ,
But you don't,
These things which I write,
Will never be within your sight,
I have a boyfriend and he isn't you,
But I kind of wish it was,
Though I know I shouldn't,
I really like him, but I love you,
Do you still love me too?
No you don't,
At least it seems that way,
But I can't tell,
It's way too hard,
I can't see past your outer shell,
I guess I値l never know,
All I do know is that you like someone else,
A friend of mine, and it kills me to know,
You wrote her a poem,
Just like the ones you wrote me,
Did those words ever mean a thing?
Was it all true? or a lie?
Did you love me as you always claimed?
The poem you gave her,
Like the ones you gave me,
Did you mean all that you said?
Do you care for her more than me?
Do you even care about me at all?
Do you even realize I知 alive?
You see right through me,
At least it seems that way,
You pass me by,
Not even a wave,
It pisses me off,
Makes me so damn mad,
I want to punch something,
But yet I don't,
I keep it bottled up inside me,
You flirt with other girls,
Right in front of me,
I feel so much pain,
I almost can't bear It,
But I have to,
I知 stronger than that,
I refuse to beg you to talk to me,
I would never beg you to take me back,
Even if it was something we both wanted,
My parents wouldn't allow it,
Not that they'd know.
I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do,
All the time I wanna cry,
But the tears don't come,
They flow easily now though,
As I pour out my heart on these pieces of paper,
It is late at night,
Yet still I do not waver,
I keep on crying,
I don稚 even know why,
I miss you so much,
I might even want to die,
I知 not that stupid though,
You know that well,
I would never have the courage to kill myself,
I知 scared of hell,
You wouldn't care anyways,
At least you'd act like you didn't,
You'd just smile and joke about it,
Just like always,
Even if you did care,
I壇 have no idea,
You keep you emotions hidden,
I see you at lunch,
Sitting with my friends,
The one I joke, laugh, and talk with,
You sit there making jokes,
And they of course laugh,
If you see me at all you act like you don't,
You have fun with my friends,
They have fun with you,
But how can you hang with them?
You don't even look at me,
But you used to make me laugh,
You used to joke with me,
but not anymore,
Why can't we at least be friends?
Maybe then some of this pain will go away,
At least a little,
Of course it will still be there,
But not as strong as before,
Or maybe it will,
I can't be for sure,
But what I know is ,
As long as I知 with you or even close to you,
The hurt won't be as great.
I feel like hell,
I want to say more,
But I don't know how or what,
I知 lost and I feel hurt,
But I guess he does too,
He might even feel worse,
But I guess I値l never know,
I知 so sorry,
For anything I did wrong,
If I ever hurt you,
And for letting you go.
I love you,
And you probably already know,
But I値l always be there for you even if you don't care.
I guess I知 done,
With this sappy and rhymless poem,
So I guess for now,
This Is The End
CGP
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